Trying to stay positive! I need to keep reminding myself of the good that will come from everything coming down on me right now. Having a home that isnt falling apart, the possibility of having a washer and dryer again, getting to redecorate and throw out old stuff I dont need any longer. Maybe having a yard, porch, garage. With everything going on with my Mom just knowing were taking steps to get her to Portland in the next 6 months makes the negative situation seem like it has a purpose. Ive always wished we could be closer and see each other more. Shes the light of my life. I have two loans I pay on monthly and they have both given me options for the holidays to skip payments this month and next so now i dont have to stress so hard about fees and deposits. Although its going to be VERY hard for me to not be able to decorate for christmas, it will be a perfect gift to ourselves to start the new year at a fresh new place meant for us. And I guess that means ill be doing something festive like every night to stay in the spirit! (Watching Nightmare Before Christmas right now) Maybe the energy of this place is spoiled and a refresh in a new place will bring brightness and warmth we didnt know we were missing. Just need to keep coming up with the good and stay focused on moving forward. What is everyone doing tonight? Gods know I need a serious pick me up
Posted on: Sat, 15 Nov 2014 20:36:28 +0000