Welcome to the mind of a difficult woman. - Earlier today I heard Studio by Schoolboy Q, the lyrics have always spoke to me as if my lover were saying them, the video even reminds me of things we do. I shed a tear or two because of it. The song couldnt have spoken louder to me about today, because while I listened - I didnt comprehend. He has been working hard lately with his music and has had little time for me and it breaks my heart. Studio work is no joke and I should know this. I support and push his dreams and then feel jaded when I cant be with him. Im spoiled normally, so it been difficult to suddenly have this adjustment in my relationship. I begin to question everything, even myself. Little things add up and I begin to wonder if I am even relationship material. Despite all that I knew, my emotions got to me and I acted like an idiot. Im beating myself up but at the same time Im seriously looking at myself and wondering what the hell I think I am doing. I know we make a great team but Im certainly the weaker part of the team. He must love me a lot to put up with my bullshit and still act as if nothing happened.
Posted on: Sat, 15 Nov 2014 05:23:02 +0000