When I was about 4 my dad started to abuse me. I never really noticed it was actually abusing til now. I was so used to it I never really told anyone. He would pull my hair and throw me onto the ground, choked me until I apologized or gave me a reason why I did what I did. He forced me to do things that I never wanted to do, and I feel like I could never forgive him. I cry looking back on how my parents used to be so mean to me. My sister was very abusive too. She always threatened to kill me and she had a knife in her hand, it used to scare the shit out of me. She would also pull my hair, bite me on the back, punch me and threw me down. She would never let me call my mother and let me tell her about it. I remember a few months ago I tried telling my mom about how it used to make me feel, and still makes me feel. All she did was get mad and yelled at me. So I have no one to really tell to about it. In 2nd and 3rd grade I would get picked on and called names which were really stupid, and people would never treat me fairly. I was always crying, everyday. 4th and 5th grade things got better, my dad started hitting me less and I had the best friends ever. In 6th grade I had to transfer to a new school since my sister got expelled from my school. I was so lonely in 6th grade. Thats when i started getting depressed and started to do self harm. I tried to talk to people but they would accept me. I was socially rejected by everyone. The beginning of 7th grade was better than 6th grade. I got picked on but I had friends. That was also when I met my girlfriend. We started dating on pi day in 2013. Shes making my life a living hell though. And now its 8th grade. Everyone yells at me for everything I do, Ive attempted suicide 5 times now, and Im still cutting. My girlfriend treats me like crap, she hates me. Everyone at school hates me. Im rejected. My grades are horrible. My life is basically crap now.
Posted on: Fri, 07 Mar 2014 23:09:39 +0000
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