Wow! Can you believe it has been two months since my last chemo appointment!!! woo hoo! Saw the oncologist today, she said that I am doing remarkably well considering everything that I have been through in the past 10 months. She is cutting back on the Aridmax in an effort to lesson the side effects of surgical menopause. She is sending me for a base line bone density scan and referred me for counseling. (roll eyes on the last bit). I even managed to lose a pound! LOL We discussed the fact that I feel 90 when I move and that I am always tired... she said I must adjust to all the new stuff my body is doing. We decided that I have done everything medically I need to do to protect myself from future cancers and I can start trying to adjust back to living instead of just surviving. I never realized that I was in a sort of survival mode... it is hard to live like that, it takes a lot of energy. It is equally hard trying to go back to just living. I am not really worried about the cancer coming back; I know that it can, it will probably be the cause of my death some day. I am just trying to focus on living for now and being present now for me and the kids and Cam. I am scheduling the breast implant exchange. If all goes well in a month I should be writing about how that went. Even though I am still worn out, the oncologist and I think the exchange will help me sleep better and that is important right now. I see the GYN again this week for a follow up after the partial hysterectomy and the genetic counselor on Friday! Busy week!
Posted on: Mon, 22 Sep 2014 17:13:17 +0000